hummingbird heartbeat (open)

[samantha marie mackenna]

[atrb=border,0,true] [atrb=style, width: 300px; height: 300px; border: 5px solid #66AFCC; border-radius:50px 50px 50px 50px; background:url('http://i672.photobucket.com/albums/vv90/shes_a_skeeze/layouts%20and%20patterns/7d2bab3d.png'), bTable] musicalmelodies92 is online and typing . . . So I'm really excited for my album to come out. I have a few covers I've posted already on youtube for fun and for some publicity stuff too so I can get my name out there a little bit. And then I go on tour with my best friends <3 things are finally looking up for me. I'm kind of waiting for things to get bad again though. Nothing is ever ok for long, unfortunately.

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[colette emma cristobal]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-image:url(http://i1191.photobucket.com/albums/z479/Lynzi_1999/11chloe_CA0-articleLarge-4-1.jpg); -moz-border-radius: 180px 180px 180px 180px; -webkit-border-radius: 180px 180px 180px 180px; border: solid #80461B 3px; width: 300px; height: 300px;] cole_em COLETTE IS ONLINE AND TYPING... •cole_em : oh my god, congratulations sammy! You've wanted this since forever and now you've got it! Can't wait to see your album and buy one <3 I might just search your posts on youtube. And no worries, I'm sure the happiness would stay a bit more still....hopefully the same thing goes for me

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[samantha marie mackenna]

[atrb=border,0,true] [atrb=style, width: 300px; height: 300px; border: 5px solid #66AFCC; border-radius:50px 50px 50px 50px; background:url('http://i672.photobucket.com/albums/vv90/shes_a_skeeze/layouts%20and%20patterns/7d2bab3d.png'), bTable] musicalmelodies92 is online and typing . . . Thanks Cole This is such a big development for me, and I'm really glad it's finally come along. I've been working towards this moment for years. If you really want an album, you can come with me to the store on the day of release and get it with me at 12:01.. I'm pretty sure Ryan is already going with me anyway so we can make it a group thing or something. If you're lucky, I'll sign it for you See, that's where I'm not sure if it's really worth it being this happy. The only way things can go from here feels like down, but I'm trying to stay positive and I keep saying it will keep getting better and better. I just can't wait to go on tour with the boys because that will actually show me if I have any fans, you know? So far, I've only had people commenting on my videos but that's not the same.

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[colette emma cristobal]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-image:url(http://i1191.photobucket.com/albums/z479/Lynzi_1999/11chloe_CA0-articleLarge-4-1.jpg); -moz-border-radius: 180px 180px 180px 180px; -webkit-border-radius: 180px 180px 180px 180px; border: solid #80461B 3px; width: 300px; height: 300px;] cole_em COLETTE IS ONLINE AND TYPING... •cole_em : haha. I'd make sure to be the first in the line then just relax. everything will be fine. comments are starters and when you hit that stage and tour with the boys, everyone will surely love you. I know so. Its how I started a few years ago. But i'm just a model so it isn't much of a big thing. Just trust this moment. It'll go all the way. Besides, you have Ryan to be there with you. He won't let anything bad happen.

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[samantha marie mackenna]

[atrb=border,0,true] [atrb=style, width: 300px; height: 300px; border: 5px solid #66AFCC; border-radius:50px 50px 50px 50px; background:url('http://i672.photobucket.com/albums/vv90/shes_a_skeeze/layouts%20and%20patterns/7d2bab3d.png'), bTable] musicalmelodies92 is online and typing . . . Ha, I think Ryan would fight you for the spot right behind me so it's up to you if you're willing to fight him for it Sometimes I wonder if I put too much faith in him, you know? I mean I trust him with my life, but still. I know he's not perfect, so I worry about that too. I just worry a lot.

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[colette emma cristobal]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-image:url(http://i1191.photobucket.com/albums/z479/Lynzi_1999/11chloe_CA0-articleLarge-4-1.jpg); -moz-border-radius: 180px 180px 180px 180px; -webkit-border-radius: 180px 180px 180px 180px; border: solid #80461B 3px; width: 300px; height: 300px;] cole_em COLETTE IS ONLINE AND TYPING... •cole_em : I'll be there first and he's just gonna have to deal with it xD All it takes is trust. Let him be. Boys are naturally protective and supportive over their girls. Besides, he's a big boy withfivebackups. You've worked hard for this too. Now, you achieved your dream. As they boys said, they had nothing to do with it. It was your natural talent and a bit of their help.

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[samantha marie mackenna]

[atrb=border,0,true] [atrb=style, width: 300px; height: 300px; border: 5px solid #66AFCC; border-radius:50px 50px 50px 50px; background:url('http://i672.photobucket.com/albums/vv90/shes_a_skeeze/layouts%20and%20patterns/7d2bab3d.png'), bTable] musicalmelodies92 is online and typing . . . Ha, I'm not kidding. He will fight you for that spot. He's been waiting for this since we were little kids xD I know, I pretty much am covered, huh? lol. I'll still worry. Just who I am.

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[colette emma cristobal]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-image:url(http://i1191.photobucket.com/albums/z479/Lynzi_1999/11chloe_CA0-articleLarge-4-1.jpg); -moz-border-radius: 180px 180px 180px 180px; -webkit-border-radius: 180px 180px 180px 180px; border: solid #80461B 3px; width: 300px; height: 300px;] cole_em COLETTE IS ONLINE AND TYPING... •cole_em : and I'm literally serious about wanting to be in first. I'll have Chester, Mikey and Cade with me Haha. or maybe some guards from the management? lol. kidding. Well, its better to worry than not think of the possibilities. At least some how, you could try and avoid a mistake.

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SORRY THIS TOOK LONG D:

[samantha marie mackenna]

[atrb=border,0,true] [atrb=style, width: 300px; height: 300px; border: 5px solid #66AFCC; border-radius:50px 50px 50px 50px; background:url('http://i672.photobucket.com/albums/vv90/shes_a_skeeze/layouts%20and%20patterns/7d2bab3d.png'), bTable] musicalmelodies92 is online and typing . . . Yeah I mean between Ryan and Sebastian, I'm covered for life. Although if Ryan and I ever get really serious and get married or something, he'll probably surround me with bodyguards whenever he isn't there, huh? Makes me laugh a little bit at how protective he can get sometimes. I just want to start this tour so I can run off with you guys and have some fun for once, you know? Can you imagine how crazy tour will be with the boys? You need to protect me from them, Cole.

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No worries

[colette emma cristobal]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-image:url(http://i1191.photobucket.com/albums/z479/Lynzi_1999/11chloe_CA0-articleLarge-4-1.jpg); -moz-border-radius: 180px 180px 180px 180px; -webkit-border-radius: 180px 180px 180px 180px; border: solid #80461B 3px; width: 300px; height: 300px;] cole_em COLETTE IS ONLINE AND TYPING... •cole_em : I'm sure you'd do a good wife for Ryan. And that would be a bit fun, yeah? You can ask them about embarrassing Ryan moments, haha xD Though, I don't really favor having guards around me. I get to do less things. But seeing as I'm not really that popular, I'm semi-free to go around and about. Besides, I think an over protective boyfriend is a cute act, haha. *sigh* Good thing for you, marriage is a good subject whereas in my position.... nevermind. Uhm... I'm not coming? Its just you and the boys, remember? sucks though. I'll be missing you and the boys. Though, I'm sure it would be tons of craziness and happiness on tour. And seeing as tons of girls are obsessed with the boys, I mean it get ready for some hate. I'm not saying they'd hate you. I think most will love you but hey. about last year when Chester and I were seen in public, my twitter was filled with hate Chester just doesn't know about it But yeah. I'd protect you... over skype xD

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[samantha marie mackenna]

[atrb=border,0,true] [atrb=style, width: 300px; height: 300px; border: 5px solid #66AFCC; border-radius:50px 50px 50px 50px; background:url('http://i672.photobucket.com/albums/vv90/shes_a_skeeze/layouts%20and%20patterns/7d2bab3d.png'), bTable] musicalmelodies92 is online and typing . . . I can't believe I'm actually talking about getting married to Ryan already. Am I crazy? Ohh but Cole! Chester will be all moody without you and who will PMS with me?? haha. I'll be the only girl on a bus of all boys. This will get interesting, I think. I guess I can have Ryan go on runs to buy me more tampons. Carter might do it too if I bribe him with brownies I will definitely skype you every day. At least help me develop a security system for my bunk so they can't attack me while I'm sleeping? That's what I'm most worried about.

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[colette emma cristobal]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-image:url(http://i1191.photobucket.com/albums/z479/Lynzi_1999/11chloe_CA0-articleLarge-4-1.jpg); -moz-border-radius: 180px 180px 180px 180px; -webkit-border-radius: 180px 180px 180px 180px; border: solid #80461B 3px; width: 300px; height: 300px;] cole_em COLETTE IS ONLINE AND TYPING... •cole_em : Not really. I guess you just really love him. Let him be moody. He can take care of himself. Besides, he promised to skype me as much as possible. and yeah, Carter has a big addiction to your brownies. I'm giving you credit though, it does taste awesome. And good. That way I can be updated with that the boys ACTUALLY do. Plus, I could scold them for you and give you tips on how they'd stay away. haha. To be honest, you'll just need something to bribe them, give them threats or... have someone to guard you over? xD

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[samantha marie mackenna]

[atrb=border,0,true] [atrb=style, width: 300px; height: 300px; border: 5px solid #66AFCC; border-radius:50px 50px 50px 50px; background:url('http://i672.photobucket.com/albums/vv90/shes_a_skeeze/layouts%20and%20patterns/7d2bab3d.png'), bTable] musicalmelodies92 is online and typing . . . Yeah, I think I do... Hun, I'll probably be texting you all the time to update you on everything so don't worry. Well a threat could be I won't cook for them... they all love my soup and Carter would die without my brownies... Hehe Or there's always Ryan to guard me...

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[colette emma cristobal]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-image:url(http://i1191.photobucket.com/albums/z479/Lynzi_1999/11chloe_CA0-articleLarge-4-1.jpg); -moz-border-radius: 180px 180px 180px 180px; -webkit-border-radius: 180px 180px 180px 180px; border: solid #80461B 3px; width: 300px; height: 300px;] cole_em COLETTE IS ONLINE AND TYPING... •cole_em : Good. 'Cause I have a feeling they WILL leave the gruesome parts >.> haha. Cade knows how to cook so no to cooking threat. But to brownies and Ryan? I bet it would work xD

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[samantha marie mackenna]

[atrb=border,0,true] [atrb=style, width: 300px; height: 300px; border: 5px solid #66AFCC; border-radius:50px 50px 50px 50px; background:url('http://i672.photobucket.com/albums/vv90/shes_a_skeeze/layouts%20and%20patterns/7d2bab3d.png'), bTable] musicalmelodies92 is online and typing . . . Oh I have no doubt they will attempt to be as crude as possible. It's how they've always been and I don't think it will ever change, even when they are all 40 and have kids or whatever happens in the future. I have a feeling if I put no cuddling out there for Ryan he'd stop them no matter what.. and Carter would go through withdrawal without my brownies so I'm pretty sure I have my plan

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